It's another day down on another holiday weekend and we are 3/4 ways through the long of it. In explanation - it was a long, long weekend for me anyway with Thursday AND Friday off. Glad to have the extra time to work on the extra paperwork and extra jobs associated with the extracurricular activities. Writing and publishing business is exciting and helps to keep my mind on other matters and off of food. Or, at least, I'm trying...
I feel good, even though, I am experiencing the odd bout of distracting woe - cannot explain it other than the occasion has come up to sometimes say the words "alone" and in realizing that I am able to devote the time to establishing companies and writing lengthy and frequently required documents without consideration for anyone but myself. Doesn't that sound heavenly? In fact, it is - so it escapes me why I am feeling down at times and those are the times I fear because dependency steps in to soothe a solitary soul.
It's like giving me a bag of leftover cookies to keep for the next event - really?
*Snap out of it* The good news to share that I cannot explain any more than my dependency on the comfort of food is the fact that I have not had to take a back pill for the last week. I ran out of the muscle relaxants the doctor prescribed to try instead of over the counter combinations and I ran out last Sunday. Thinking I'd pick up the refill at the pharmacy on Monday on my way home after I managed to get through the day - it surprised me to find that I didn't need to take anything. I did not stop to fill prescription. It is not miraculously healed - I know that if I pushed myself too far I would need something for the pain and there are some things that quickly remind me of the weakness with a twinge of "oh, that's not right" - but I've just continued going along doing what I need to do and it's brought me to a week without. I think that's a small victory but I am unsure what I can attribute it to?!?!?!?
I spent last night as a volunteer at the Freewill Players Shakespeare in the Park. It was a wonderful night and although I left before it was completely finished I totally enjoyed the walk through the park, my job at the box office, and sitting with hot chocolate to warm me as I watched the players. It started to cool down - I'm talking long-sleeved shirt, our volunteer t-shirt and fleece hoodie - cool. Time to leave while there was still a smile on my face and no pain in my back. My knees and feet hurt a bit (not the best shoes :) but all's well that end's well, today. Last year I had to cancel out because I could not make it through the night of volunteering - this year I was determined to get back to my normal and enjoy the things I love to do.
Crossing all fingers (which by the way, makes typing very difficult) that these little victories continue, without celebratory foods. Bring on the wine!
I feel good, even though, I am experiencing the odd bout of distracting woe - cannot explain it other than the occasion has come up to sometimes say the words "alone" and in realizing that I am able to devote the time to establishing companies and writing lengthy and frequently required documents without consideration for anyone but myself. Doesn't that sound heavenly? In fact, it is - so it escapes me why I am feeling down at times and those are the times I fear because dependency steps in to soothe a solitary soul.
It's like giving me a bag of leftover cookies to keep for the next event - really?
*Snap out of it* The good news to share that I cannot explain any more than my dependency on the comfort of food is the fact that I have not had to take a back pill for the last week. I ran out of the muscle relaxants the doctor prescribed to try instead of over the counter combinations and I ran out last Sunday. Thinking I'd pick up the refill at the pharmacy on Monday on my way home after I managed to get through the day - it surprised me to find that I didn't need to take anything. I did not stop to fill prescription. It is not miraculously healed - I know that if I pushed myself too far I would need something for the pain and there are some things that quickly remind me of the weakness with a twinge of "oh, that's not right" - but I've just continued going along doing what I need to do and it's brought me to a week without. I think that's a small victory but I am unsure what I can attribute it to?!?!?!?
I spent last night as a volunteer at the Freewill Players Shakespeare in the Park. It was a wonderful night and although I left before it was completely finished I totally enjoyed the walk through the park, my job at the box office, and sitting with hot chocolate to warm me as I watched the players. It started to cool down - I'm talking long-sleeved shirt, our volunteer t-shirt and fleece hoodie - cool. Time to leave while there was still a smile on my face and no pain in my back. My knees and feet hurt a bit (not the best shoes :) but all's well that end's well, today. Last year I had to cancel out because I could not make it through the night of volunteering - this year I was determined to get back to my normal and enjoy the things I love to do.
Crossing all fingers (which by the way, makes typing very difficult) that these little victories continue, without celebratory foods. Bring on the wine!
That's wonderful you are without medication for your back.....WooooooHooooooo!!
ReplyDeleteHappy you got to do Shakerdprstr in the Park.
Keep on keepin' on my friend........I'm sending special magic dust your way!
That was a neat way to spell Shakespeare now wasn't it?
ReplyDeletewow, don't even try to figure out how that might have come about ...
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